Childhood Trauma Presents as Adult Anxiety

Or Why in the hell can I acknowledge what is going on in my brain, but can’t for the life of me stop it?

I am currently lying on the top bunk of a camper at the Aspen Farms Horse Trials for my groom job. This is the first Horse Trials I am working that I actually have a pretty good handle on my tasks and what I need to do.

Except I am sick. Late last night, I started feeling quite ill. Chills, sweats, sneezing, congestion, sore throat… all of it. It carried…